December 31, 2020

So we meet again, another "New Year".

We've been here before. Me anticipating you while you keep me at arms length. I have no idea what awaits me. You're mysterious like that.

I used to prepare myself with goals and to-do lists. Not this time. Don't be alarmed, I'm not giving up. I still have goals. I simply stopped limiting myself with the idea of time. Especially the "perfect" time. You did that for me. You blurred my days, months and seasons. You confined me to my home. What was I supposed to do? Give up? Complain? Curse you and your destruction? I did that for awhile. I also ate my worries away. I gained 12 pounds in 2 months. I admit I was scared. But I've been there before. I know the outcome well. I refuse(d) to lose myself like that. Not this time. I worked too hard. I work too hard.

In the midst of failure and turmoil, I found hope. I found faith. As much as I dislike you, I appreciate you 2020. You forced me to think differently. To act differently. To pray differently.

Life has no guarantees. That's the ultimate lesson this year. Life is precious today. Life is worthy today. We may be limited in movement and/or finances but the mind is limitless. Life can change at any moment; you can change at any moment.

Dee

Happy New Year! Xx

“Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”

*Brené Brown